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Mark 16:15-18

Playing games with God is not a good thing to do. He knows our hearts. Really, so when we use that as an excuse, He really does know what we are doing and He doesn’t like it.  

Rev. Cindi Ford

2 Corinthians 6:16 - 2 Corinthians 7:1 (Amplified Version)

6:16) What agreement [can there be between] a temple of God and idols? For we are the temple of the living God; even as God said, I will dwell in and with and among them and will walk in and with and among them, and I will be their God, and they shall be My people. [Exodus. 25:8; 29:45; Lev. 26:12;

17) So, come out from among [unbelievers], and separate (sever) yourselves from them, says the Lord, and touch not [any] unclean thing; then I will receive you kindly and treat you with favor, [Isaiah. 52:11.]

18) And I will be a Father to you, and you shall be My sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty. [Isaiah. 43:6; Hosea. 1:10.]

7:1) THEREFORE, SINCE these [great] promises are ours, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from everything that contaminates and defiles body and spirit, and bring [our] consecration to completeness in the [reverential] fear of God.

7:1 Therefore, having these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God. (New King James Version)

God is a God of love, as we have been told many times by many people. But He also has a wrath side.

He is Holy, and He expects His people to walk in His Holiness.

I have experienced the “WRATH SIDE” of God. It isn’t pleasant. It was, however, necessary for me. Without it, I wouldn’t be saved today. God had to literally get angry with me before I would give my life to Him.

I DON’T RECOMMEND GOING THAT FAR.

Playing games with God is not a good thing to do. He knows our hearts. Really. So when we use that as an excuse, He really does know what we are doing and He doesn’t like it.

When I was about 2 years old, my Dad, Mom, younger brother and I moved from Davis, CA, where my Dad attended Veterinary school, to the Medford area. My Dad left us there, and he went to Klamath Falls, OR to work for a Vet he knew there.    

When I was between the ages 6 and 10, my Mom and Dad divorced. I prayed every day that they would get back together. I wanted more than anything, for my family to be whole. As a child, I didn’t understand that God wouldn’t go beyond our will, so when it didn’t happen, I blamed Him. During that time, I was going to Church at an Episcopal Church. I didn’t understand a whole lot about this God they spoke about. He seemed far away. Also, during this time, a neighbor lady, Mrs. Hill, whose husband happened to be the principle of the school I went to, started a Good News Club after school. I found out a lot more about Jesus and what He did for me through her. I still remember some of the cute little songs we sang. She brought the Bible to life and planted a seed that would, much later, grow into what you see today.

Unfortunately, I didn’t stay a Christian for long.

During my childhood, an older cousin sort of introduced me to sex. They didn’t “go all the way” but they (I won’t say if it was a male or female, it’s none of anyone’s business; so I will refer to him/her as they) did make me do things that felt uncomfortable. It isn’t a big deal to me today, because of what God has done in my life. He has taken all the pain and most of the memory of it away. It is awesome what He will do, when we let Him!

I grew up, and started experimenting with drugs and sex at the age of 13. I had been drinking with my Dad, just sips of his beer, for as long as I can remember.

During my teen years (most of it is a blur) I started messing around with a Ouija board. DO NOT let anyone tell you that they are just harmless little game boards. They are a window into satanic activity. I listened to music and read books that no person should read. Books filled with vulgarity and music that exalted satan. The titles of the music and books are all that comes to my mind now. But I had to fight a long hard battle before the words were gone. Even today, sometimes, those words will try to enter my mind and I have to just concentrate on praise and worship to God to get them to leave. During that time period, one of my Uncles planted the seed of Christ into my life. It didn’t take root then, but it sure did later!

Everything you allow into your mind through books, television, music or any other way, stays there. Those are “gateways” into your mind. You don’t get rid of it. You may think that it’s gone, but the “accuser of the Brethren”, satan, doesn’t forget and he will bring it up as often as possible until you give in to it. If you are letting anything into your soul through those things that are not Godly, STOP! Believe me; you want to stop now while you can.

I became a witch and practiced “black magic” as well as “white magic”. There is really no difference in the author of it. All of it is satanic. Remember, satan is a liar and the father of it, and he had me convinced that I was his right hand woman. I told people that I was going to Hell and I was proud of it. I had the black candles in my room, all the books, everything. I was even trying to start my own coven.

About that time, God intervened in my life, and I went to live with my Dad in California. I continued trying to practice my witchcraft, but, for some reason (unknown to me at the time) I couldn’t. I just didn’t want it anymore. I still used drugs, drank and smoked, but the satanic worship just kind of went away. Probably because of who I was hanging around with. Satan didn’t care. He knew he still had me because I wasn’t serving GOD.

I have since then, denounced my relationship with satan and given my life completely to God. But I had to go through some things to get there.

I have been date-raped at least three times in my teen years. I have also had close relatives try to molest me. I thank God, now, that He was watching over me and, some how, it didn’t happen.

When I was 17 years old, I got pregnant. I kept my child and raised him the best I could. My Mother was very supportive of me and so was my Dad, when he was there. They were both very proud of Christopher. So was I. I still am. It is a miracle of God that he survived his childhood. When he was just an infant (a few months old) we were going to parties where drug use and abuse were rampant. I was dropping acid and trying to care for my child. It was not a good scene.

I think it was the grace of God, again, that Chris survived. No one knows what they will do when they are under the influence of drugs like that.

I was also a speed freak when Chris was little. I remember staying up for 3 or 4 days and nights straight just doing speed and drugs like that. When I started coming down, I began hallucinating. Again, the Grace of God kept my son from harm.

I met my husband in 1977 and he became Chris’ Dad. He was so awesome. He told everyone that he was Christopher’s dad and he was proud of it. When Chris was around 2, we moved to the Bakersfield area. Tupman, to be exact. We lived in the back of a short bed pick up with no camper or anything. We had a bed that we threw in the back of the truck and we would sleep there. I wouldn’t sleep on the ground because I was afraid of the scorpions and tarantulas there. Some of you have heard my husband talk about how we borrowed a 22 from one friend, and shells from another and hunted rabbit for food. We cooked it over tumble weeds and that is how we ate.

After a while, friends of ours took us in off the street, and let us stay with them until we could find work. While I was doing some work outside, this guy came up to me and asked me if I had heard about Jesus. I said some choice words that I’m not very proud of, and told him to leave. He just kept at me, and finally, I went to his Church. It was a little Church of God right across the street from the house we were staying in. I gave my life to Christ (I actually said the prayer and joined the “Born Again Club” at that time, but it was more seed planted in me). Oh, I tried to change my life. I went to Church regularly and read my Bible and all that, and, for a while, I really did give my heart to God.

While we were there, God did one of the many miracles that He has done in our lives. My husband had recently given his heart to God, and we were both young Christians. The Bible said that we could ask for the things that we needed, and God would give them to us, so I took that as truth. We had no hot water because the propane tank (or whatever kind of fuel it was, I don’t remember) was empty. I asked God one day if He would give me some hot water, so that I wouldn’t have to heat the water for my husband’s bath. He was working around diesel and would come home filthy dirty. I went in and turned on the hot water, and it worked. It was hot! Needless to say, my husband was shocked when he came home!

Another day, we were out of food, and someone (I don’t know who) came by and just set a box of food on the porch. God was so good to us!

About 6 months passed, and we were working at a Shell gas station. We got word that my husband’s Grandpa was dying, and if we wanted to see him, we had better get there. We jumped in the truck and took off. When we were about half way there, out in the middle of nowhere, the motor of the truck blew up and the truck died. We laid hands on the dash board and prayed that God would get us to where his Grandpa was. My husband turned the key, and they truck started right up. As soon as we got to his aunt’s house, where Grandpa was, the truck died and wouldn’t start again. This taught us a valuable lesson. Be specific when you pray. We asked for God to get us there and that is just what He did!

Since we were stuck there, I got a job at a second hand store for a while. It was an interesting place to work and I had a nice boss. He was an elderly gentleman and sometimes he would bring me home from work. As I said, he was a gentleman.

We stayed with my husband’s aunt for a month or two and then got another car and went back to Tupman. My husband went to work in the oil fields and we moved into another house.

We stayed in the area for around a year, and during that time, we back slid. Even after all that God had done for us; we went back to our old ways. Sounds like the Israelites, right? Miracle after miracle and we still “went back to Egypt”.

We moved back to Medford and I left my husband. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was pregnant with our second son, Matt. I started drinking and partying again, but this time, my husband was praying for me. He prayed for 4 months without ceasing. I was not a good person during that time. I later learned that my family had commented to my husband that they didn’t even recognize me. I was acting so badly. My countenance was awful. I didn’t look like myself or act like myself.

I finally consented to go to a revival with him. It was a real revival. I think it lasted about 6 weeks. My husband had been praying and fasting for me during that whole revival. Rev. Herman Bryant was the Pastor of the Church, and he had a man called Rev. White ministering the revival. I will never forget that man. He used to say, “I was born in Ireland, raised in Canada and civilized in the United States.” It was a good thing. It was a GOD thing. I went for about three nights and nothing he said could touch me. I was so hard hearted. I think it was the last night of the revival, and a message in tongues came forth. (See the Gifts of the Spirit in 1 Corinthians 12:4-11). The interpretation was something like this: “You have only one more chance and this is it. You get your heart right with me right now, or you will never get right.” That was not “verbatim”, but my interpretation of what was said. I knew this was for me. I knew I had made God angry because of the hardness of my heart. It was now or never and I knew it. I went immediately to the altar. Rev. White looked down at me with the love of God in his eyes and said, “What could such a sweet child as you have done to make God so angry?” I repented right then and there. I asked God to forgive me of everything I had ever done and He did it. I felt so clean and so new. Pastor Bryant later told me that he had never seen someone change so much and so fast. I was headed for Hell and going there quickly, and God loved me so much that He was going to do anything to reach me. He had to get angry in order to reach me and I am so glad He did. If I had not gotten my heart right with God that night, I would be in Hell or on my way to Hell with no hope. God is a God of love, but He is also righteous. He will not always strive with man. You can push Him too far. I am so grateful that God loved me enough to get angry with me. He also delivered me from smoking at that time. I was smoking at least 2 packs of cigarettes a day, and I asked Him to make me sick when I even thought about smoking. He knew my heart. He knew I really wanted to stop and that I couldn’t do it in my own self. The next day I woke up and thought about having a cigarette. I was so sick! He had, once again, answered my prayer. I tried to smoke about a year later, but the prayer I had prayed still worked. I got sick! I haven’t smoked since. God is so good to me!

Since I got “Good and Saved” that day, I haven’t even had a desire to turn back. What would I go back to? My life is Christ. I belong to Him and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

If you are feeling a tug at your heart, or a turning in your belly, it is God calling you to get your heart right with Him. You need to pray. A simple prayer would be something like this:

“Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner and that You paid the price for my sin when You were crucified on the cross. You are the only begotten Son of God and You died and You were buried, but on the third day You rose again so I could live forever. I ask you to forgive me of my sin and come into my heart and life. Help me to live for You. I denounce Satan and all of his lies. I receive You, Jesus, into my life. I believe in my heart and I confess with my mouth that Jesus Christ is my Lord and my Savior. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen.”

Now that you have prayed that prayer, if you prayed it from a sincere heart, you are a child of God. But it doesn’t stop there. We must live a life that is pleasing to God. The Bible says that without holiness, no man will see God. We can’t be holy by ourselves. It takes the Grace of God to make us holy. We must get into the Word of God, read it daily, and then do what it says. The Bible tells us to “come out from among them and be separate, and touch not the unclean thing”. This means that we are to leave our old life style, and, yes, our old friends and start a new, fresh life. After we accept Christ as our Savior and Lord (which implies ownership) the Bible says we are new creatures. The old man has passed away and behold, all things are made new! We are no longer bound to sin! Sin and satan no longer have a hold on us! We belong to God. We have been bought with a price. We are no longer our own, but we now belong to Christ. I have heard people say that salvation is free, but it wasn’t cheap. God gave His very best for us. He sent His only begotten Son to die on Calvary’s Cross, so that we could be saved from a devil’s Hell. Hell was not created for people, but people can choose to go there. God’s desire is that all would be saved and that no one would perish, but He will not go beyond our will. He created us with a will so that we would and could choose to serve and worship Him. This is what He longs for. This is what He gave His Son for. This is why Jesus Christ chose to do what He did. He willingly laid down His life for yours and mine. I’m so grateful to God and Jesus for what was done for me.

Find a good Bible based Church and go there regularly. Get with someone who is a strong Christian and learn from them. If you need help finding a Church, e-mail us at info@impact4christ.org and we will try to find one in your area. Also, please e-mail us and let us know that you have made that special decision for Christ so that we can rejoice with you.

2 Corinthians 3:15-18  15 Yes, even today when they read Moses' writings, their hearts are covered with that veil, and they do not understand.  16 But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.

17 For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.   18 So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like Him as we are changed into His glorious image. (New Living Translation)

Why don’t you remove that veil right now. Pray the prayer that I just gave you. Ask Jesus Christ to be the Lord of your life and live completely for Him. Then tell someone you have done this. The Bible says:

Romans 10:10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. (King James Version)

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I pray that God touches your heart and draws you to Himself.

God bless you and keep you and cause His face to shine upon you.

Cindi Ford    

Impact 4 Christ Ministries